As I mentioned before, there were many things that contributed to my lack of blogginess over the last several months. There was, however, one glaring issue. Somehow I had lost my way--my purpose in blogging to begin with.
I first began this blog in 2005 as a way to stay connected with our family that is spread across several states. It was a means to stay involved and share the highs and lows of everyday life as a family. Somewhere along the way, I got lost in the idea of gaining readers, and having themes, and neatly packaged series, and even possibly ads. That's what most of the "successful" blogs I have read do.
They work to get readers and sometimes they work even harder to keep them. And who doesn't want to be "successful?" I knew, thanks to my site meter, that many more people besides our family were finding their way to Our House. Last Christmas when it came time to post our Christmas list that is always requested by the grandmas, it didn't feel comfortable anymore. That's when I knew I had to make a decision of some sort.
I had no idea who is reading--only how many people, where they were located, and in some cases the specific link they clicked to find their way to my blog. Somehow, just knowing that people were reading made me feel obligated to "entertain" my guests. It changed what I was writing about and how I was writing.
And, you see, I was never able to work the time to do all that I felt obligated to do into our schedule. So I stopped writing. And I didn't miss it...for a little while. Soon I would find myself blogging in my head again. (If you've ever had your own blog or a journal of any sort, you probably know exactly what I mean.)
So here I am. I am now resolved to return to my original purpose. I do think there has always been a secondary purpose that I'll hang onto since I know that there are still people visiting who certainly aren't members of our family. So I'll continue to share glimpses of our everyday lives as well as my thoughts about why we do the things we do and various aspects of growing a family for God's glory in today's culture.
I originally titled this "No Apologies" because I won't be apologizing for my thoughts and convictions, but I realized that in a sense this is a blanket advance apology. My posts probably won't fit any specialized theme considering all of the myriad topics and roles that must be addressed by being a wife and mother. Also, my ideas and thoughts will be shaped by my view of Scripture and my convictions that are based on the Word of God. That alone makes me confident that someone, somewhere along the way will be offended by something I post. That's just the way it is.
So consider this an advanced apology and know that I don't set out to offend, but I won't hold back, either. It is my prayer that, perhaps, God will use something I have to share to encourage and enrich the lives of my unknown visitors just as I have been encouraged by and gleaned valuable tips from other blogs which I have visited. I won't be declaring what is best for everyone--just what works for us. I will simply share what's going on in our home and family and the thoughts that the Lord lays on my heart.