As time passes, I feel like I really don't have a whole lot to say that's new or very meaningful to anyone but me. The contrast between my two boys who are so very much full of life and David has been very evident lately. Benjamin is developing a will of his own and the means to express it continually.
There seem to be so many things that we should have been watching David do over the last 3 years. At times I've reflected on all the life that we've missed out on without him growing up with us. I was sad for us...for him. And then I realized that he is not to be pitied. He's already in the midst of everything that keeps me going when things get crazy and hard. He's experiencing joy and blessing that are still beyond my understanding. So I'll look forward to the day that I can join him, but that doesn't mean I won't miss him.